I once saw this quote saying, “Don’t be afraid of change, cause it is leading you to a new beginning.” I was stunned for a moment.
That time, I was having this big dilemma about my future. One that includes my source of money. I was scared and confused as hell! It’s such a big deal for me and I just don’t want to mess it up, ya know?
Long story short, there were two options for me. One that includes good money with no future and boring life, or one that includes happy life and a bit brighter future with.. well not so sure about the money thingy. Then I stumbled to that particular phrase, and I just thought that maybe.. just maybe, a new beginning is not that bad after all. I mean, you’ve been stuck for years in this place and you know that you’re kinda wasting your time in some way but you ignore it just because you feel WAY TOO COMFORTABLE with it. Don’t you feel like it’s the time? Don’t you feel like maybe being comfortable is not that fun anymore? Don’t you just wanna go and challenge the world?
‘Cause I do. I decided to choose the later. Money? Money will come. I do believe when you’re really good at what you do and when you do it with your heart, people notice and will appreciate you more than you can ever imagine. And for me.. to do that, to gain that, I need a change. I need a new beginning.
So, here I am.. Ready for a change. Don’t get me wrong, the horror doesn’t disappear just because you’ve decided. The horror is just about to surf into another new level. All of “what if” questions will appear and haunt you every single day. But hey.. people say that life is all about taking risks. You will never know if you never try. Gamble? Yeah, it is. You either win big or lose big. The way I see it, when you lose, you just get another change to restart. You get to find another new beginning. And most importantly, when you win, you actually win more than just a new beginning. You get to conquer your fear, you get to be brave for once (hopefully for the rest of your life), you get to enjoy your life in a new exciting way.
I have not yet won. I will win. One way or another. I will get my new beginning. I will grow (again). I will discover new things. And maybe.. maybe I will find the answer I’ve been looking for.
Don’t be afraid of change.
Found her youtube channel around late 2011 or early 2012 and has been a fan of her ever since. She goes with the name, Sara Niemietz. She has a really cool and unique tone, IMO.
And this time she’s doing If I Ain’t Got You by Alicia Keys which is one of my fav songs and she did it great! Well, check her youtube channel if you’re interested!
If someone ask you, “Are you the same person that I met a year ago?”, what would you say?
It’s shocking how fast a year has passed and how, in the blink of an eye, a new year – a new blank book has arrived, waiting to be written. I still remember when I spent my NYE just before we entered 2013. I was at my good friend’s house, enjoying lobsters and steaks. After that, I randomly drove a really long distance to my other friend’s house just to say “Happy New Year” and catching up. All of those were a year ago. Here I am now in 2014, in the middle of the night, trying to remember what 2013 felt like, trying to put all that into this empty white box.
One word that came to my mind when you mention 2013 would be…. AN EYE OPENING. Well, ok that was three words, but you get what I meant. Right?
An eye opening… It has opened my eye in so many different ways. It showed me how to be a person. It thought me how to let go. It showed me true friends. It left me a gift of life. It thought me to enjoy life. It told me to have no regrets. Yes. I finally learned to enjoy life as you seen and have no regrets.
I traveled a lot last year. I went on a solo trip. I went with my friends. I went with my family. I visited Bali, Lombok, Bandung, Singapore, and Hong Kong. I even went to Bali 4 or 5 times. Somehow on each trip that I went to, all of them were memorable. I got to know my friends and family in the way I’ve never known before. In the end, it showed you who’s the best travel partner for you. Funny thing is I found that I’m the best travel partner for myself. Solo trip suits me best. Maybe it’s not as fun as going with your friends, but it gave me more experiences that I could ever ask from a trip.
The highlight was Hong Kong and Bali. I went solo last year to both places. Partly because I know I have friends who live there, partly because I don’t want to be annoyed with itinerary or any kind of drama. I wanted it to be just flowing.. Do as I pleased, whenever I wanted to, wherever I wanted to.
So, Hong Kong. Well it was an ordinary trip. Went there to visit my best friend that I care so much about. We had a lot of fun. Oh, I finally tried clubbing in another country! It was fun! I even like the security, hahaha! They were super helping and actually fun. Overall, the trip was refreshing. Next, Bali. I was referring to my two-weeks stay in Bali in May. I wrote about it before. It was the first time I spent so long alone on a trip. Which I found to be much more refreshing than any other trip I’ve ever done before. I decided to make it as an annual thing to do for myself. I’ll do it again this year after I finished my work contract in May. I’ll see you there?
Other than traveling, I would say 2013 was full of friendship. Like I said, I found out who my true friends are. It’s not about how long you know them, because at some point, people leave. I read it somewhere that it’s about who say that they will stay and actually stay, especially in times when you need them the most. Fortunately, I made right choices long ago when I first met my friends. They’ve stayed. They’ve been there with me. Every step of the way. Yet, some people that I thought less, did leave.
Coming from that, I learned how to let go. This year was full of that. Oddly, even tho I’ve been in the same situation before, I happened to face the hardest one yet. Yes, of course I was talking about girls. It took a longggg time before I finally let her go. It was really hard, but then again, I have my friends with me. They’re always there. Didn’t matter how stupid I was and how stubborn I was, they’re always there with me.
And so it came to this blog. I made this blog on 2012 but then I kinda left it and never updated it again. It was last year that I started to write again. Partly because I like to write and tell stories, but somehow I feel like I need to do this so I can keep myself sane. Some words, I would never be able to say it out loud. That is when this blog came through. It gave me space to say what I couldn’t say before. Just like my favorite quote from Haley James, “Sometimes people write the things that they can’t say“. And because of this, another new world opened up to me. I’ve met new people along the way through this blog, and I’m grateful for that.
Then from all of those I mentioned above, I’ve learned to live my life and have no regrets. I gotta do what I gotta do. Do not hesitate. It’s better if you’ve done things, no matter how good or bad the result’s gonna be, than wondering and regretting the things you’ve never done just because you’re afraid or not sure. My whole life was like that. Wondering “what if”. No more. I’m done living like that. I don’t want to have any regrets when I’m old and looking back at my life. You should do the same thing. :)
So, I would say that I’m not the same person as I used to be. I’ve changed. I think we all have. I believe, in every year that you have lived for, you’ve gained things that changed you, I hope, to be a better person.
Well, that was my 2013. Let’s see what 2014 brings to my life.
Happy New Year!
It’s weird and funny how someone can, out of the blue, make your day a much more brighter in one single moment.
I have this bad habit of thinking too much and go all the way to the end when there’s actually no such ending for every single thoughts. Like, in the middle of my work, I can let my mind wonders around gracefully to all aspect of my life, thinking about shit and stuff. Sometimes it makes me sad, sometimes it makes me happy, and sometimes it makes me lost. It feels like I’m sucked into this hole of blurred images and just trying so hard to figure out everything in one go. Which is stupid, I know..
And so a few minutes ago before I wrote this, I just did it again. Full of thoughts, too serious, too distracted.. and suddenly a good friend of mine just sent me a text saying that she looked so fat in the photo I share with her earlier this morning. I don’t know why (maybe because it’s so random), but I just snapped out of my thoughts and couldn’t stop laughing while reading that. Like, literally laughing for minutes. Hahaha.. Suddenly, I felt much better and more happy than how I was few minutes before. Weird.
just some random thought.
see? I just did it again. :|
It’s raining outside..
I met up with my best friend yesterday and we talk about this one person who loves rain so much, it reminds me of myself.
I don’t know exactly since when I love rain. It sort of just happened, you know? One day, on a rainy day, I was having this thoughts in my head about.. pretty much everything, and I turn on my iTunes, chose a good-slow-mellow-kind-of-song, and.. I smiled. I think I just realized how rain can be a peaceful offering to my life. Since then, I’ve always been chasing for rains.. Am I weird?
Sometimes, when it’s not raining outside and I just needed that moment of closure with a drop of water outside of my window, I made my own rain. I even have this app called Rainy Mood ( you can check the website rainymood.com or download the app), it produces raining sound. It’s exactly like the real one, it gives me a peaceful feeling when I play it.
Still, nothing beats the real sound of a downpour rain. Sitting in your patio, your terrace, your balcony, or just next to the window inside your house.. have a warm glass of coffee or tea or chocolate.. read a book or write a note.. turn on the slow gloomy music.. I love it. I just love it.
A peaceful moments that God gives to you to ease your problems or just simply to make you smile.
And somehow, at some moments, while you’re watching the rain, you know that someone special of yours is doing the same.. thinking about how happy you are because it’s raining and how it makes you smile.. and you know that it connects both of you together. : )
and yes.. it’s still raining outside.
Sarapan atau brunch pake soto? CUSSS!
Jadi ini salah satu tempat yang udah bertahun-tahun jadi langganan keluarga gue. Namanya Soto Roxy H. Darwasa, letaknya di Jl. Tidore No. 2. Masuknya dari Jl. Biak, Roxy sebelah apotek roxy. Jam bukanya agak unik sih, dia buka dari pagi kalau gak salah sekitar jam 7 atau 8 udah buka, dan tutup jam stengah 3an, tapi biasanya jam 1an gitu udah abis atau tinggal sisa-sisa.. Makanya paling enak makan di sini jam 9an atau 10an. Hehe..
Apa sih yang bikin enak? Ini sebenernya kaya soto betawi atau soto jakata yang isiny daging dan jeroan sapi, tapi….. KUAHNYA ITU LOH!! Goshh.. Enak parahhh! Itu jadi bikin isinya juga jadi enak. Nah, untuk isinya elo bisa pilih-pilih maunya apa.. gue paling suka paru, lidah, iso. Parunya tuh paru soto madura yang rada crunchy dan lidahnya ENAK BANGET! Beuh… Mantap deh!
Banyak yang suru gue cobain soto betawi yang lain diberbagai penjuru jakarta tpi tetep gak ada yang bisa ngalahin enaknya Soto Roxy ini! Bokap gue pun dulu tuhn kaya kamus soto berjalan hahaha.. Jadi gue udah pernah lah itu berkeliling nyari soto di jakarta. Tetep aja baliknya ke sini-sini lagi. Hehehe..
Well, selamat mencoba!
November 17th, 2013. I’m officially 26th years old! Still single. Boom.
Tho for me, a birthday (especially mine) is an opportunity to eat like crazy without everyone bugging you to control your appetite. OH YEAH!
So, I started to have a Birthday Trilogy. What is a Birthday Trilogy? It’s actually a make up word that Lucy Wiryono came up with when she heard that I’m planning to claim my birthday treat from Holycow! Steakhouse by Chef Afit (@steakholycow), Loobie (@loobielobster), and HolyGyu (@HolyGyu_)! For you who don’t know, all those three restaurants (super recommended by me of course) give you a special treat on your birthday. FREE MEAL. It’s one of their promotion to treat their customers. How nice, eh? : ) So, Lucy, one of the owner, told me to do it and named it Birthday Trilogy. Hahaha.. Just for fun stuff.
And so I did it! in 3 hours. Well, for my defense, I was super hungry. And I bring my friend along too. So it’s not that I want to have free food for the sake of my birthday.. well.. that too. BUT, the point is I wanna celebrate my birthday with treating my friend some too. Hehe.. The free food is a bonus. :p
I forgot to take the photo when I’m at HolyGyu.. way too excited for the food.
That was from 1 pm – 4 pm. I still had a birthday dinner on 7 pm. Only had 3 hours to rest my tummy and prepare it for another feasts!
For dinner, I decided to have it at E&O Jakarta. It’s located in Mega Kuningan Area.. It’s a somewhat new (not really new) restaurant in Jakarta with great ambiance. Been there once for drinks but haven’t tried the food yet. So I thought it would be a good If you love Loewy in Mega Kuningan, you’ll love this also. E&O is actually under the same group with Loewy, and it’s handled by Will Meyrick as the Executive Chef. The same person behind Mamasan in Bali. Well, overall it’s a great place for having dinner with your loved ones or just to have a drink with colleagues.
The restaurant suggest you to have a share dinner. So the portion is quite big for each food. There was four of us and we eat a lot. Like, A LOT. One of my friend has tried the food before so she has some ideas what to order.. At the end, we order Seared Scallops with Caramelized Duck, Crispy Shallots and Peanuts; “Som Tum”; “Kaeng Phet” of Roasted Duck; Tom Yum of Prawns; Twice-Cooked Beef Short Ribs; and Crispy Pork Belly. As well as Durian Panna Cotta with White Sticky Rice and Nutella Steamed Buns with Coconut Ice Cream and Vietnamese Coffee for our deserts. Oh, I must tell you that the Durian Panna Cotta is TO DIE FOR!!! Like, seriously a burst of flavor in your mouth!
Again, I forgot to take photos of the scallops. But, it was good tho. So fresh.
So, that was it! It was an awesome birthday overall. Got to spend the day with a good friend of mine and my loved ones. Till next year?