The Same Sunset…

Dear you

I remember that day we sit side by side watching the sun set,

we were in awe of its colors and I unconsciously was reaching your hands—not wanting this to end.

Yet, here we are separated by unmeasured distance..

Looking at the sun slowly hiding under the horizon line.

Hey..

it’s that same sunset all over again..

We’re looking at it the whole afternoon, trying to draw its beauty using our fingers,

hoping that somehow, knowing that our other half is looking at it too, our fingers would intertwine with each other..

But,

I eventually stopped trying to reach it using my fingers..

Yet, I still managed to smile through the whole afternoon.

‘Cause I realized that even though my fingers wouldn’t reach you, my heart is with you in this very moment,

watching the same sunset..

Erwin.

The story of Zach Sobiech…

Death is just another thing on the agenda.. kinda. Yeah, it’s scary. But the only reason it’s scary because you don’t know what’s next or if there is a next. So it’s kinda like sitting in a dark. So you can choose to be freaking out in the dark and thinking… ok what’s out there, or you can just relax and fall asleep–and just be happy and content with everything.

– Zach Sobiech

I just want to share this.. not only because the great story within, but also as a reminder for us all to start living. As the director said in the video, “This stuff is not happening because you’re dying, it’s really because of the way you living.”

May you rest in peace, Zach Sobiech. : )

Erwin.

Smile, please..

I went home from office today using a bus. I was busy with my phone for a while before I looked up and saw the faces of the other passengers. It was pretty overwhelmed for me honestly, I was looking around and see the same expression on everybody’s faces. That tired–or maybe sad–vibe were floating around the air around me. I couldn’t see any smile, even from those people who were busy tapping their thumbs on their phone or busy talking on the phone. Most of them did it with no expression in their face at all. Not one single smile or even a small smirk was drawn in that half packed bus.

I was listening to my music from my phone the whole time. Until it shuffled to a dance music and I instantly tapping my foot while moving my shoulder and head a little bit to enjoy the beat. I know it’s kind of stupid, but I couldn’t help to put a big smile on my face.

I looked around once again and realized that I might be the only one who actually enjoying this bus ride to home. I was grooving my body even more after that, hoping that someone would see how silly I was–trying to do little dance in a bus, and eventually smile or laugh a little because of that.

It was around 6 PM, and I know how tired we could be after a whole day of work and maybe after facing so many problems that might have occurred earlier today. Believe me, it wasn’t a fun day for me as well. I was just trying to not let it got to me, so I wanted to wash it away with something that makes me happy, which is good music. But hey… no one seemed paying attention to this silly guy dancing in the middle of the bus. They all had this blank stare, it made me felt a bit down looking at them.

Maybe I was just too naive, but I knew exactly what one smile can do to other people. What one silly conversation or act by someone can do to the sad faces. A lot of people did that to me and I was really grateful for them. Even those who I didn’t know.

So to you all out there… smile, please. I don’t know how hard your day was or how deep your problem was, but a little smile won’t make it worse, I promise you that. It can only bring that relaxation moment for you even only for a few minutes, which maybe exactly what we need to overcome a bad day. Call your loved ones, text your loved ones, listen to your favorite music, remember the happy moments you experienced before, try to do anything that makes you happy even only for a tiny bit. ‘Cause sometimes we forget that when other people see us, somehow they got affected in some way we would never imagined.

I don’t know, but I hope someone in that bus was smiling because of me (be it’s because of my silly-stupid dance move, I don’t mind)

It was such a sad world outside, let’s start small and put a smile to the people around you. :)

*taken from pinterest

Erwin.

PS: try not to be creepy tho. :P

MUSIC: Alex Vargas – Solid Ground

Another one from him. The song is great and the voice is just… right. :)

He has your hand
You hold my everything
This silent burden will be my tragedy

Alex Vargas – Solid Ground

He has your hand
You hold my everything
This silent burden will be my tragedy

But your eyes say it all
When I lay you down
Yeah your eyes say it all
When I lay you down

I’ll keep it close while I am under it
Dry every tear before you discover it

When my eyes say it all
When I lay you down
And my eyes say it all
When I lay you down
In the arms of another
You’re on solid ground
I’m a fool
I’m a coward
And I’m breaking down

I know he’s safety
And I am disarray
My will be done
I’d have you any way

Your eyes say it all
When he lays you down
And my eyes say it all
When he lays you down
In the arms of another
You’re on solid ground
I’m a fool
I’m a coward
And I’m breaking down
In the arms of another
You’re on solid ground
I’m a fool
I’m a coward
And I’m breaking down

OOOOOOOoooooOOOhhhhhh

In the arms of another
You’re on solid ground
I’m a fool
I’m a coward
And I’m breaking down
Oh in the arms of another
You’re on solid ground
I’m a fool
I’m a coward
And I’m breaking down

He has your hand
You hold my everything……

Erwin.

Music: Alex Vargas – Sweet Nothing (Calvin Harris Cover)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1mVVL64xrcc Browsing through songs and I instantly stunned when I heard this one. The melody and the way Alex sing it is just…. something else. You can actually feel the sadness of the lyrics, which is quite hard to get from the original version by Calvin Harris. Good song to listen to when you feel sad or you just want to write about your feelings… or maybe just want to spend some time in your balcony looking out to the sea. Your choice. :)

To those…

I watched her giggling. Her eyes were focusing on him. The smile, it’s contagious. Her blonde hair looked so good on her tiny head. The way she’s playing with her hair when she watched him talking on the phone. Was it weird to fall for her, when I didn’t even know her?

It wasn’t all of those above that made me fell… it’s the sadness I saw on her eyes. The same glance I had on mine, ’cause no matter how hard I tried not to fall, eventually I did.

Erwin.

to those who fell from far away…

Passing by….

It was a busy afternoon at the train station. She just got off from train. She walked fast, trying her best not to bump to other people on her way to the exit door.

And there he was, gasping for air. He’s been running all the way from the front gate trying to catch his train. The announcement for last call has been ringing for a while now. He had to find small space around him to slide in through to go forward. He hadn’t noticed, but he was in the same line with her.

It was just a few meters left before their path crossed.

And then, fate took over. Like a skilled athlete, he moved to the right front, going for a slight gap left by an old man who dropped his book. He looked at him wanting to help, but decided to slip over to get ahead. The train was about to leave any moment.

So, there they were… passing each other without laying eyes to one another. She was too busy paying attention to the sea of people in front of her. He was too busy paying attention to the train. Yet, he looked back once and he saw someone was helping the old man. He continued to run.

It was her. She stopped and picked up the book, gave it to the old man and then left the station.

He missed the train.

Erwin.

*featured photo is taken by James M Thorne, click here to see his works.